Trying to stay Optimistic
This week I find myself at the office alone. The entire staff (besides me), has gone to attend a Regional YFC Conference. I decided to stay so that I didn’t have to cancel Dimension Four (my weekly youth club) again. So after not having D4 for over a month last night we returned. I had no idea how many students would come back, especially when the number of regular students has been quite low. It was a good night. We had only 8 kids show up, but still had lots of fun in the gym. One of our volunteers did a “staff hotseat.” This is a chance for kids to ask questions of our staff. It went well. We even had one new girl come. This leads me to thinking about my current position here at YFC. I have been working here for 4 years now and I don’t have any of those amazing stories you hear from youth pastors and missionaries. I hear stories like that from people I work with, but I don’t seem to be the one ever telling them at staff meetings. I used to call myself an optimistic, however, I don’t think I can any more. Is this just what happens to youth workers when the luster of those first years of ministry wears off? Then recently we have been going through a process of discovering what strengths each person has and how often they are using those strengths. Well, I have found that I am using my strengths the least of anyone I work with. I am beginning to think about how I could use these strengths more regularly, however, that is proving to be difficult. Throughout this process I am trying to remain positive, however, when I am trying to communicate my frustration, I find that I am not always the most tactful or fun person to be around. So I apologize in advance. May God guide me as I seek to serve Him.
